yes, i am finally home. it feels ohhh sooooo goooood :)

yesterday got even better. baby boyfriend landed safely in jakarta and went to my house few hours afterward. God, i miss him! and now he's miles away, again. won't be seeing him again until next week :( oh well. have fun baby. come home soon. i really miss youuuu!

shortly, mom, my bro, and i will be going to bandung, as we always do for lebaran. oh cant waittt, altho the going there would be such a pain in the ass (..literally). but this is the first lebaran without bapak AND emah. cant imagine what it'd be like. i miss them like hellll!

flying home in less than 4 hours, how cool is that?! bye bye singawhore!

..hey! round is a shape, right? ;)


i seriously need to stop eating. which i know won't happen anytime soon. food are the only thing keeping me sane these days. haa! i'm coming home in a few days and God knows imma stuff up with good ol' home made cooking. i'll get even fatter then. oh hell, whatever.

just one more assignment left. and the flight's on friday morning.

you know why

yes, i want to get out of here.

but i do not need any kicking from someone, anyone, thank you.

arghhh, days have been so ugly lately. i hate it here. i do not want to be here anymore. please.



no class tomorrow. yayy! thanks to jorge who left unexpectedly. sad and happy at the same time, we are. so, going shopping, instead. should be working on final projects. but hey, what the heck. i need some refreshment dammit.

i need to grow up.


i've heard that before.
i'll change when i wanna change.

yes, this is cliche and you might think i'm being hyperbolic, but you really don't know what it's like being me*. you have no fucking idea. so go ahead, bitch around about my attitude (as i always do about yours), i won't fucking care.

hey, i told you i can be such a pain in the ass.



*other than having a father who left your family for a fucking whore, and who thinks he can make up for what he did by spoiling you with cash, you have to live (..in a small room w/ high rent rate) miles apart from other family members that actually do care about you. you have all this assignments in front of you with choking lecturers to kick you in the face every once in the while. anddd.. why did i bother typing this? it wouldn't change a thing anyway. oh yea, try being me.

why does missing someone you really love feel so hard?

<3

yes, this past few weeks, especially this week, have been the roughest. homesick have gotten into me for the first time, since i first got here. i want my mother here with me. assignments are piling up, so are sleepless nights. the housemate issue, oh please. i won't even bother talking about it.

this fasting month have been the toughest. no, i haven't been that hungry or too thirsty, not once. but it seemed like other problems keep coming. today everything got better. i hope everything gets better. it's two weeks til i come home. oh yes, home, i need it so bad. saved 5 packs of polaroid films for me to bring home. uuu yeahh, jakarta bandung family friends viki in my polly pocket, that would be niceeee :9

happy fasting folks!


i'm super happy that fasting month has finally come. i'm always happy when it comes to this time of the year. but at the same time, i'm not so happy about going through this month without my family around, for the second time. oh well, what else can i do?