woke up at 2, when i was supposed to meet my cousin. so i rushed to the shower and finally met my cousin. went to another cousin's house cz her mother-in-law passed away. first time ever that i've been to a chinese funeral. i didn't see the mother-in-law. i didn't want to. just saw the coffin and that was enough to make me nauseous the whole time a was there. everybody wore white, so did i. my cousin start telling me the story on how her mother-in-law died. a bloody reckless driver hit her and she was flung 10 metres away. every few minutes i kept on moving my eyes towards her coffin. scared, i was. not because she was there, not anymore. scared of how i was reminded once again, that God can grab your life, anytime, in a flick of a finger, just like that. one minute she was fine, healthy, and living. the other, she's gone, just like that. i kept asking to myself 'what if i was her?'.

i just finished watching the movie 'LOVE'. i seriously don't know what to say about the movie. i wept the whole time. (..well, no, not the whole time) but seriously, believe me, the movie's worth watching.



you. yes, you. i'm sorry :( i miss you.